Monday, February 14, 2011

my outlook...

Yes, this really is my blog. I have been gone, suffering thru many, many new tests and many, many new diagnoses. The change in my blog reflects my "being" presently. Out of sorts, maybe, and all over the place.

A little dark and cloudy. But, with remembrances of my beloved desert home, which I shall be leaving by the years end. A sky filled with lightning, with upheaval, with some foreboding of what may come.


I hurt constantly now. I am so tired, so very, very tired. Life has gotten to be almost more than I can bear at times. But, I reach for my happy face to put on when its needed and just curl up and hide otherwise. My emotions are all over the place. I might look and sound perfectly fine one moment and in tears the next.

But you all know this place. It is a world that we all reside in at times. It just seems to be taking over more and more of late...