Tuesday, November 9, 2010

I've been out of commission...

So, Rose asked:
"What are they doing for your blood pressure!"


They are filling me with more drugs...so far they are not doing much. I was in the hospital a couple of days Halloween weekend--couldn't breath! They did tons of tests as they were afraid it was my heart. Luckily my heart looks fine. I have been feeling horrible for a couple of months, with the breathing difficulties getting worse. I finally saw my PC again and he was worried and wanted a CAT scan. Since it was Friday he told me to go to the ER so he could get the results faster. Then the hospital decided to hold me hostage!

They are still not sure exactly what the problem is (perhaps chronic asthma and/or chronic bronchitis) and have sent me to a pulmonologist. That has me shaking in my boots because he is going to have a coronary himself when he sees my list of meds--and then he is going to take me off a bunch of them! I know he will and I don't know what I am going to do. We have worked so hard to come up with a mix that at least makes most days tolerable. Damn it, it never ends. He is also probably going to order another sleep study and they will find out the same thing they did last time -- I don't sleep. And, they don't know why or what to do about it.

Ah, the life of an overweight fibromyalgia patient. It is either because of the fat or the fibro. A pat on the head and out the door....

I really do hate my life. Sigh...I will try harder to lose weight. But the exercise has me stumped. I have so many other health problems along with the Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue. So, please someone tell me, what can I do?

I am really down and so far passed tired I have no description of how tired I am. I haven't read much of my buddies' posts in the last month or more. I truly miss you, but I am so darn tired, by 1:00pm I am done in. The scary thing is though, I don't want to do anything, even read my dear friends posts, much less write one. It has taken the better part of two hours to write this.

I want you all to know I am thinking about you and praying for you, and worrying about you, too.

Fondly,
CJ